Outcast

There is one prisoner in jail, always

the same prisoner

yet no one is certain why he stays

for he doesn’t want to get out.

People have forgotten his face,         forgotten

his name, and the emptiness

of the frozen jail cell is comfort

to a city so dependent on daffodils, pink lemonade, and Monday night tea parties,

there is one prisoner

no one is              certain why he stays

locking himself away

         swallowing the key

                 he basks in dirty cement walls

                                 talks like a priest.

He calls me

Every Thursday afternoon at four sharp, and as I pick up the telephone

church choirs beg me not to,

but the telephone is shrill and rings louder than their pleas:

“Hello Father.”

But who does he worship? Who titles himself the bishop of emptiness?

The choirs fall silent as he speaks his Confessions

and the list is long, one after another, vaults shiver

his professing voice rattles the prison bars that trap my thumping heart

I rattle against them, shake and squirm,

but Confession goes on and Father is not pleased with what he’s done

and what he hasn’t done—

What hasn’t he done?

“The prison is a circle, like a church, to represent eternity.”

But people have forgotten his face,

he swallowed the key.

The familiar words and voices

echo against the crumbling walls of a vacant church.